I guess I'm going crazy.I don't know why it just came to my head.I wake up every night to a darkness.I sleep to a nightmare of a ghost.Wake up every morning to hear not a greeting but a command. can't even get though 1/4 of my horlicks and I'm interupted. I'm changing not just physically, but mentally.I'm no longer mentally hinged.Am i rising too fast in position?Am i good enough to live up to everyone's expectations?Am i just trying to do everything by myself that in the process i've pushed away every one that cares for me and become the thing i've most feared-a burntout boy?.................................BUT I CAN'T BURN OUT, NEVER! THERE'S SO MANY THINGS TO DO AND EVERY ONE'S RELYING ON ME! THE WORLD OUT THERE NEEDS SOMEONE TO HELP IT! I'VE GOT TO DO IT! I CAN DO IT! I WILL DO IT!!! WATCH OUT SATAN!! SOMEDAY I'LL ....NO WAIT I HAVE ALREADY BEEN BROKEN FROM CHAINS OF DESPAIR! AND I'M GOING TO TAKE THE GOSPEL TO THE ENDS OF THE EARTH AND SHOW THE PEOPLE AND TELL THEM ABOUT JESUS!!!
[if you want to comment on this post, fell free to do so. getting an opinion from others is always good for me...]
I am....
- sxj6
- air itam, penang, Malaysia
- Also known as bboy______,studying at sxi and a dude who's still maturing.
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Sunday, December 6, 2009
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
Friday, November 13, 2009
Friday, November 6, 2009
exam coming..still got time to blog....this post is for the people I have misjudged,wrongly thought of and falsely accused....
Eugene, whom I thought was a kwai lan kia is actually a dude[genius] who showed me that I still am not the best of the best
Donovan,whom I thought had no respect for friends,is actually making me see my mistakes more clearly so I don't slack off
Hui Shern,whom I thought was a really dumb boy,is actually teaching me that not everyone can see things the way I do
Chern Zhen,whom I thought was annoying,is showing me that curiosity is in everyone
Bernard,whom I thought was gay,is showing me that being bold with your talents invites persecution and going through it requires strength,LOTS of it
Thank you all and sorry for treating you guys wrongly....
Eugene, whom I thought was a kwai lan kia is actually a dude[genius] who showed me that I still am not the best of the best
Donovan,whom I thought had no respect for friends,is actually making me see my mistakes more clearly so I don't slack off
Hui Shern,whom I thought was a really dumb boy,is actually teaching me that not everyone can see things the way I do
Chern Zhen,whom I thought was annoying,is showing me that curiosity is in everyone
Bernard,whom I thought was gay,is showing me that being bold with your talents invites persecution and going through it requires strength,LOTS of it
Thank you all and sorry for treating you guys wrongly....
Monday, October 19, 2009
Finally so long already didn't update.so here I am with an update on....
JOTA JOTI 09!
It was my first time being in subcamp......
Panthera!
It was a great camp and a great experience for all of us.We built a lot of gadgets made new friends and did other stuff.I nearly didn't sleep throughout the whole camp so now very tired lo.We didn't win a lot of prizes this year, but we did win:best yell, challenge trophy for JOTI and best papan ikatan. overall it was a fun camp.Got very little pics but too lazy to post up now...
Monday, September 28, 2009
Now I got a problem.My members asked me on XSD whether I liked patrol 1 better or theirs better cos' before I was patrol leader I was from patrol 1.I told them that I liked patrol 1 better but since I'm with them now,we're a patrol and it's a new beginning for all of us.However patrol 1 will always be my first patrol and nothing can change that....
Saturday, September 19, 2009
Haven't had the time for anything these days.hols have started.first time in my entire life at school i get to take it easy during holidays.Xavierian Scout's Day coming up. ever since my promotion to PL things have gotten a lot harder but i'll manage.oh yeah !I met yip wayne on Friday for basketball.after that I took him to angel cafe.He was literally gobbling on Malaysian food.and yeah there's this cool pic which everyone's crazy about and I took it!check it out:
Friday, September 4, 2009
Saturday, August 15, 2009
Sunday, August 2, 2009
If only....
I saw her today,after so many years,when that happened,we looked at each other in the eyes,I knew what she wanted,she wanted me to run to her and say hello and I wanted to do the same thing.But alas,I could go no further,for between me and her stood a wall,a wall made up of parents,ages and priorities.Why?why is this happening to us?After that, my heart shattered in a million pieces just like before.If only life was so beautiful,like those HSM movies,where we shall someday be together forever and ever.I now wonder if she is thinking along the same lines now...
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Saturday, July 25, 2009
Friday, July 10, 2009
Saturday, July 4, 2009
My Best Friend
His name is Yip Wayne,He's one of the friends I 'll never forget all my life.He was always there to talk to me about something even though I used to bully him with my old gang.We ate the same meals,Talked about the same things and shared our dreams.before I met him,I didn't know and want a best friend because I used to think friends tied me down.after being best friends with him,I was tied down,when he left and stuff but now I see the joy of having a best friend.cheers to you,wayne and God bless you.
Friday, July 3, 2009
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Quotable Quotes
Her are some quotes that I got over the years:
"You can't serve God unless you can serve people"Pastor Victor
"Sometimes people call themselves Christians but don't live a Christian."Daniel Song
"When you hate yourself,you give out hatred even though you don't mean it"my mother
"When you do something,do it with your heart and soul"Mr. Liang
"It is your duty as Lasallians to keep the tradition alive"Mr. Liang
"It is time to get back on track for we have been slacking off for too long"Mr. Liang
"Genius is a gift not a priveliege"Dr. Octavious
"You don't need to prove yourself or earn God's love it's free"Pastor Victor[the words aren't exactly the same but it's something like that"
"The fig trees are weak coverings for your sin"Alex
"God doesn't say'I'll show the way then you go',He says'Go and I'll show you the way' "
Forgotten who said it
"You're scouts!Don't disgrace the name of scouts and the badge that you're wearing"Forgot who said it
"Love is patient it can wait"Pastor Victor
But the most unique quote I got was during everything I was doing,especially during altar calls.Here's how it sounds like:
"Take My hand Jin Ji and I'll be with you and guide you"Holy Spirit
"You can't serve God unless you can serve people"Pastor Victor
"Sometimes people call themselves Christians but don't live a Christian."Daniel Song
"When you hate yourself,you give out hatred even though you don't mean it"my mother
"When you do something,do it with your heart and soul"Mr. Liang
"It is your duty as Lasallians to keep the tradition alive"Mr. Liang
"It is time to get back on track for we have been slacking off for too long"Mr. Liang
"Genius is a gift not a priveliege"Dr. Octavious
"You don't need to prove yourself or earn God's love it's free"Pastor Victor[the words aren't exactly the same but it's something like that"
"The fig trees are weak coverings for your sin"Alex
"God doesn't say'I'll show the way then you go',He says'Go and I'll show you the way' "
Forgotten who said it
"You're scouts!Don't disgrace the name of scouts and the badge that you're wearing"Forgot who said it
"Love is patient it can wait"Pastor Victor
But the most unique quote I got was during everything I was doing,especially during altar calls.Here's how it sounds like:
"Take My hand Jin Ji and I'll be with you and guide you"Holy Spirit
Saturday, June 20, 2009
Friday, June 19, 2009
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
hi y'all.lazy to write you can read about what happened in sarawak in pastor's new blog.here are photos:
hahaha nothing wrong just friendly pic.I look kinda retarded that way
sharon and her new shoes
Pastor and our driver, Richard
SIB Pengalih.it has no walls hehe..
Actually I have more but now very lazy maybe nextime....
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Exam is over!!!Well that's about it for school,but this post is dedicated to my crew on our first meeting!!!Wooohoooo!!
We are the,RPG crew!
Bboy Ghost
Specialty:breakdance
Bboy Hollow
Specialty:Beatboxing
Bboy Skull
Specialty:Liquid
Bboy Spirit
Specialty:Choreography and Technical
Well, actually,we can do all the stuff but it's just a specialty that's all.For videos,go to facebook.
Sunday, May 17, 2009
my counsel to you,chee liang
Chee Liang,if you're reading this post,I just want you to know that I'm sorry for not helping you in the exercises in tuition.However,I just want you to read this.You see,a lot of successful or clever people you see today have all been through humiliation,pain,suffering and abuse,just like what you're going through now.I myself have been through all of these things and the scars on my heart are uncountable.But if I have not been through these things I won't be what I am today.I was scolded and ridiculed in classes,and I used to be like you too but humiliation,when responded to in a right way,humbles a person and this will cause all of us to see our mistakes so much more clearly.This way,we can improve ourselves better.
If you find the pain too unbearable,talk to your parents,or those close to you.Even better,talk to God.I know you're not a christian,but you can know more about Jesus if you want,you can just ask me.He went through more humiliation and pain than all of us,so I'm sure He will understand all our problems.So, don't worry,just take it like a man and someday,you'll be able to succeed.one more thing,you're not alone because no man is an island.You'll have your parents,your friends,me and God to help you should you face any problems.So once again I apologize for being unable to help you cos' it's a test.signing out now.....
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If you find the pain too unbearable,talk to your parents,or those close to you.Even better,talk to God.I know you're not a christian,but you can know more about Jesus if you want,you can just ask me.He went through more humiliation and pain than all of us,so I'm sure He will understand all our problems.So, don't worry,just take it like a man and someday,you'll be able to succeed.one more thing,you're not alone because no man is an island.You'll have your parents,your friends,me and God to help you should you face any problems.So once again I apologize for being unable to help you cos' it's a test.signing out now.....
If you want to drop a comment,just tag smallplace[that small cbox on the top right corner]
Monday, May 4, 2009
Saturday, May 2, 2009
Monday, April 27, 2009
Saturday, April 25, 2009
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Saturday, April 4, 2009
Friday, March 27, 2009
I sure miss cellgroup and youth.It's only been 2 weeks and I've already felt like it's 2 months.My face is getting better now but my arm is getting worse.The good thing is,my BM essays suddenly became long winded like my English ones.currently saving up well for a video camera I wanted to buy.RM3 a day is a great rate.I'll have enough money by the end of next year![remember,patience is a virtue]
Monday, March 23, 2009
Monday, March 16, 2009
Hello,I am feeling really artistic today coz'I just wrote a poem.Here it is:
Things just keep flowing by,
The world moves on,
Endless moving,endless working
Tears,sweat and blood,
How abundant are they now!
Where were our days?
Full of youth and joy,
As time continues,
Joy fades,
Leaving people stranded,
In a pit of sorrow.
But there is hope!
Hope in the light!
Hope that never fades nor wanes,
Hope that endures,
Hope that loves,
That hope is the cross,
Through Jesus,
Joy was revived,
The dead were restored,
Trough Jesus,
Solace and rest came,
And the world was rescued.
We can make the world slow again,
If we find Jesus,
So look!
Be vigilant!
Eyes peeled!
On the lookout for the Lord!
So we can run to Him!
Encounter Him!
And find rest in Him!
To continue the life and work,
He has given to us.
Matthew 28:19
Go and make disciples of all nations,baptizing them in the name of the Father,the Son and the Holy Spirit,
Sunday, March 8, 2009
Sunday, March 1, 2009
We need God
today I didn't go to church cos' I got a test on next Monday so I stayed home to study but it felt like the day was in confusion and I studied but everything didn't seem to go like a day.It was like living in a dream,wandering aimlessly.So it just goes to show that we need to go to church even though we have exams.[to my mom reading this post,no rebellion intended]
Sunday, February 22, 2009
well planned day
Oh yeah today was a well planned day.I even managed to finish my entry for youthwave's logo design comp in 15 minutes!
today's activities:
0900,went to chuch
1300,Lunch
1400,cut hair.noooo!
1500,home and[sigh] homework
1730,LOGO DESIGNING!
1800,Gym time
2030,dinner
2130,UNDERWORLD 3!
today's activities:
0900,went to chuch
1300,Lunch
1400,cut hair.noooo!
1500,home and[sigh] homework
1730,LOGO DESIGNING!
1800,Gym time
2030,dinner
2130,UNDERWORLD 3!
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
HELP PLEASE!
As the title has stated above,I need help!Me and some of the fireBRANDS are going on a mission trip to Sarawak so to all of you who is reading this post please pray for us ok?thank you
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Saturday, February 7, 2009
I will worship You my God[x2].as I sang that song in youth,I thought to myself "what have I done that reflects my worship to God?"And when pastor talked about examining our ways,it made me think even more so I said to myself and God"God,take control of everything .it is better to be a puppet or a pawn of God ".the whole time during the service question after question came racing into my mind.and when alex talked about not making any promises to God,it added to the confusion.what then is the answer?is determination counted as promises?is the fire that flares up in my mind to do God's will stupid,meaningless and reckless proclaimations?only time will tell......
Friday, January 30, 2009
Saturday, January 17, 2009
Monday, January 12, 2009
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Ever wondered whether the world is moving too fast for you?I did.
Holidays,so quickly come,
so quickly go
no chance to really experience.
haaaih...
before you know it,
you're one year older
For me,I'll be showing
new form 1 hopefuls
the ropes around the co-op.
I wonder how long will it feel like
before I leave school
hmmm....
Saturday, January 3, 2009
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