I guess I'm going crazy.I don't know why it just came to my head.I wake up every night to a darkness.I sleep to a nightmare of a ghost.Wake up every morning to hear not a greeting but a command. can't even get though 1/4 of my horlicks and I'm interupted. I'm changing not just physically, but mentally.I'm no longer mentally hinged.Am i rising too fast in position?Am i good enough to live up to everyone's expectations?Am i just trying to do everything by myself that in the process i've pushed away every one that cares for me and become the thing i've most feared-a burntout boy?.................................BUT I CAN'T BURN OUT, NEVER! THERE'S SO MANY THINGS TO DO AND EVERY ONE'S RELYING ON ME! THE WORLD OUT THERE NEEDS SOMEONE TO HELP IT! I'VE GOT TO DO IT! I CAN DO IT! I WILL DO IT!!! WATCH OUT SATAN!! SOMEDAY I'LL ....NO WAIT I HAVE ALREADY BEEN BROKEN FROM CHAINS OF DESPAIR! AND I'M GOING TO TAKE THE GOSPEL TO THE ENDS OF THE EARTH AND SHOW THE PEOPLE AND TELL THEM ABOUT JESUS!!!




[if you want to comment on this post, fell free to do so. getting an opinion from others is always good for me...]

currently excited about youth camp
bored about math
exhausted about making stupid vids with my cuz
disappointed about my under-performance in pl-ship and lcd-ing
anxious about apr jamboree
suspense-ed about creative workshop[we get to wear tuxedos hehe]
that's all bbye...

I think I'm becoming a workaholic, without things to do for the day, it feels like i'm wasting my holidays . I need something to do!!!!!I've got nothing to do!!!!!every second brings me closer to school!!!!!!